5 June – Before the beginning yet after the start
Since initially setting out on this journey i’ve not achieved much. i shattered my shoulder half way through day 3 and ended up doing various stints in hospital, on drugs and in the mighty grip of frustration. So yet again I begin the journey to a new, improved me. One huge thing has changed – it’s no longer a month – it’s about so much more than that now! I’ve decided to ‘publish’ my journey through ‘my moment of madness. Basically what I’m doing is keeping a firm eye on everything that happens from here on in. To face hard facts – I NEED THIS!
What is my moment of madness?
1. work 100 hours per fortnight – 10 days on, 4 days off.
2. train rigorously and unforgivingly. to push myself to the limits, to find my maximum and to beat my best. to ensure i can compete, at the end of the day when it’s all about me.
3. to survive this, to come out at the end craving more and looking fabulous.
Why am I doing this?
I don’t know the exact source of motivation behind my madness. Maybe it’s dissatisfaction. Maybe it’s insecurity. Maybe it’s boredom, or maybe, just maybe it really is just pure madness.
[LONDON - 12 MONTHS EARLIER] Earlier this week at work we got entry forms for some adventure races, short ones. I suddenly began to feel the pangs of excitement at multi-sporting till I hallucinate. Go team “OMG Gremlins”! I don’t know why it has come up now…obviously there’s some deeper motivation rather than just being crazy in love with the idea of multi-sporting like mad; but I do not know what that is.
What I hope to achieve…
It’s really mostly about getting myself to a place where I feel most comfortable – a place of fitness, control and of health. I don’t feel comfortable as myself at the moment. Most simply put – I am well out of condition, eating badly and I feel shit about it. Since leaving Australia on 25 November (wow, now over 8 months ago) I’ve grown. Grown into a pale pudgy porker. Yes, I’ve only just decided that I don’t like being like this and I need to do something about it. July 31 is the day! I’ve no doubt that there will be tears, tantrums and buckets and buckets of sweat. Every last drop will be recorded and documented as a story of my journey of self-change.
[MIDDLEMOUNT - PRESENT DAY] Not much has changed – not in the real scheme of things. My shoulder’s a little better, my body’s about the same but my dissatisfaction with myself is higher. There’s no adventure racing/crazy deca-triathalon-ing/gross global contest with my best mate to push me on this time. I need to do this for myself…I need to prove that I can follow this plan through.
To be more specific about my goals…
1. decrease body fat percentage under 20%
2. decrease body mass 60kg or under
3. increase strength bench 60kg & perform chin ups
4. improve cardiovascular fitness run 5k
Every sunday I will ‘publish’ my weekly plan. Work’s a bitch and is all over the shop; but I will still do the roster, things I need to get done and the workouts I plan to complete.
Daily I will update on exercise done, sleep, supplements taken and HR and RPE of sessions, body weight pre- and post-exercise will help me monitor my hydration status. I’ll also complete diary entries detailing energy levels, moods and general feelings. I’d say tantrums will get a fair run too!I hope I don’t die!
peace out
