So now that I’m not far from actually handing in my application a few questions are starting to appear. It’s stuff that I have considered before, and stuff that I know will come up frequently in my (hopefully) new profession, but I wasn’t sure that it would happen this way. The questions, or thoughts come mostly when I’m alone, when I’m doing something that only requires a mild focus. I guess that’s the time when my thoughts will wander.
I don’t thinly that they’re doubts so much as my mind making sure that I’m prepared for this; that I’m sure that it’s what I want. I guess it’s me making sure I’m ready to deal with the side of things that is not pretty.
How do I feel about carrying a loaded weapon for the rest of my life; or at least the majority of it. How do I feel about potentially having to shoot someone; and having to live with that.
How do I feel about the possibility of confronting a potentially threatening situation. Having to deal with violent, irrational and drunk offenders on a regular basis.
How do I feel about having to defend other members of the public from violent or threatening offenders?
It’s all there,those questions are all there. They’re all things I’ve had to consider. I’ve considered them willingly. I guess that it’s a more prominent issue now cause it’s close to becoming a reality. I think that it’s good that my mind is processing these without me actually thinking about it. That, to me, means that it’s there; that there are risks involved, and there are going to be some situations that are incredibly difficult. But the fact that I’m thinking about it means that I know about it and am willing to deal with it. A little muddled, I know; but it’s all good.
