A week of woes…

Thursday: Am I going to die soon? was the question that popped into my head today…while training, shortly before unkie pukie reared his ugly head. I did 6 x 500s (between 9.5 & 10.5) and had to break up all but the first two. Jesus fucking christ. What have I done to myself? Not a question at all. I know exactly what I’ve done to myself! Aside from now being able to call myself Fatty McFat-Fat I am completely out of shape. I don’t think I’ve ever been in such bad shape. It is absolutely disgusting. I think now, finally, that enough is enough. No more shit food, no more sitting on my sofa cause it’s easier than having to go to the gym, or out for a walk, or to spin, or even out for a round of golf.

Wednesday I played 18 holes as the first card in my attempt to gain a handicap. Was well, but used a buggy, so the exercise can’t really count at all. My legs are killing after the 300 session I did on Monday night.

Tuesday I walked for 5 mins as a warm up. Rowed 4 x 30s on, 30s rest.
DB Bench 15 @ 10, 12 @ 16, 10 @ 16
Row 30s on, 30s off, 30s on
Vertical Traction 3 x 12 @ 37.5
Row 30s on, 30s off, 30s on
DB Flyes 3 x 12 @ 7 (slow)
Row 30s on, 30s off, 30s on
Standing cable row 3 x 12 @ 25
Row 30s on, 30s off, 30s on

Felt really good after the workout, my legs were a bit stiff…really not liking this DOMs thing – but at the same time, so so into it!

The shakes

Today…what can I say about today? I worked 7 – 1530, the last hour spent walking around Donaghcloney doing outreach – how boring!

I wasn’t going to workout straight from work, but I ended up doing it anyway. Worked hard during the session, even though my energy was low – eating was shite today. Not bad stuff, just not enough!

Row 30 sec on, 30 sec off x 5
3 x 12 DB Bench Press (14) / Vertical Traction (35), row 150m (33 – 35s)
3 x 10 Push ups / 3 x 12 Standing Cable Row
12, 10, 12 DB Shoulder Press (5) / 3 x 12 Straight Arm Pulldown
5 x 1 min row, 1 min rest – 1260m

Smashed, absolutely smashed. Felt well spewy during the last 3 of the rows, but still managed to do over 250 m during each 1min split. That’s all for the moment…am shagged!

Over the last couple of workouts (ok, last night and today) I’ve had some proper cyanosis going…I’m constantly aware that I need to get air in, and I’m really trying, but it doesn’t stop my lips from going blue. Time for some research I think!

Horrible

Today I feel so unmotivated. It’s not good. I feel tired, like I could just sit all day and do nothing. I’ve felt a bit off since I copped a lung full of chlorine dust saturday afternoon. maybe I still feel a bit hazy cause of that…but I can’t be sure.

This always happens…I start out so well, loving it to bits; then drop off after a couple of weeks. I am determined that I won’t stop this time. The trip to Iceland will be a test…I need to get straight back into it after I’m home. I think I need to adopt a more positive attitude to this, to me training. I need to have it be something I do for fun, not something I feel I need to do out of obligation.

I think maybe doubt is one of the biggest factors – I doubt that I can do it. I need to get that mindset out of my head.

My heart rate monitor isn’t working again. So I’m going to try something different! I’m going to train without my HRM today, using RPE as my guideline. I think that it will be a bit difficult at the start, but perhaps it will take away some of the external, and it will make me focus on how much I can actually do, without worrying about the external factors. I’m a bit nervous about it cause I’m very much into the analytical…shit!
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Right. So. Done! I got myself through, pushed all the way and can honestly say it was awesome to be in the gym…sweat pouring off me, doing compound exercise after compound exercise, while all around me the Irish worked out in conversational fashion. Man it feels awesome to be able to produce that! It’s a lovely day outside too – all the better!
The workout went like this:
5 min row (1152m), 20 strokes hard, 10 strokes glide (1000m in 4:22, rest 10 sec, finish)
3 x 12 DB Bench – 14
3 x 12 Standing Cable Row (t bar) – 25
Row 20 strokes – 177m
3 x 12 DB Incline Bench – 9
3 x 12 Cable Str. Arm Pulldown – 15, 12.5, 10 (shoulder a bit sore on these)
Row 20 strokes – 182m
3 x 12 DB Flyes – 5
10, 12, 14 Man Makers – 6
3 x 10 DB Push press (breathing ladder style) – 7
3 x 10 MB Chest Press (vertical) – 5
Burpees – 10, 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, rest was rep amount x 5!
Total time was about 45 mins.
Great workout! I really, really worked hard. My shoulders are currently killing me; I’ve the shakes; I know I need food, and am absolutely ravenous; but I think if I were to at this point it would all end in tears. Proper blue lips by the end of the burpees; but really kicked my own arse and proved that I can push! Hard to guage my RPE as I always get to the end and question if I could have pressed more. I honestly think I maxed out – the burpees at the end were particularly hard. Really impressed by the man makers – a welcome addition to my workout schedule – awesome for the core, balance and shoulder strength; but I didn’t really feel that they focused a whole lot on the back. Felt my rear delt were cained today – and the T Bar cable rows to start killed my back; and my grip! Awesome. Pumped!

Mighty Upper

Training today was tough… I could have so easily stayed on the couch watching telly. A big bit of me wanted to stay on the couch watching telly. That thought ran through my head many times…that would have been the easier option, but I didn’t do it. I forced myself to go. Was pleased with myself for going, despite the strong urge not to.

When I was there I put in. I really did. There was some issues with my HRM, so not 100% sure on how accurate my stats will be. Incredibly frustrating! On with training -
Row 1000m in 4:12 – very interruped…
3 x 12 Superset DB Bench (12kg) / Vertical Traction (30, 35, 35) / row 150m (under 00:34)
3 x 10 D Handle Push ups (lvl 10) / 3 x 12 Standing cable row (20, 22.5, 22.5) / row 150m (under 00:35)
1 x 10 D Handle Supine Row, row 150m (00:25)
3 x 12 DB Shoulder Press / row 150m (under 00:35)
row 200m to finish (00:45).

Stats:
00:38:48
470cal 25% Fat
MHR 110
AHR 87
Zones: H: 32:02, M:03:40, L: 00:20.

From my stats it appears that I trained exceptionally hard. I’m not sure exceptionally is the right word – I felt that I gave 100% and did really put in; but I think that the zones for this particular set were a little lower – perhaps 90 – 80; although my average HR was 87%. Hmmm. Perhaps it comes down to expectation vs outcome again.

This afternoon I have a headache. Worked 12 – 8:30…have a headach now, feel tired. I’m sure that it’s cause of my eating, I didn’t eat enough today – breakfast was crap; lunch was ok and dinner, well, I’m about to cook some eggs. I didn’t have a snack today; I didn’t even eat any fruit. I know that this is a problem Solve it by going to tescos – tomorrow. Training right after work, then off to Tescos, straight after that! Correct eating is vital! It’s something I must do, something I must be very strict on, something I must look after. Use food for fuel, to support my body and it’s efforts. Time for dinner.

God speed -

“Forget safety. Live where you fear to live. Destroy your reputation. Be notorious.”