This is a list of my mistakes. The fuck-ups that I’ve made and some thought into why they happened. I’m not proud of a lot of these, although there are some aspects to each story that I am proud of; but I will never deny that they happened. They have shaped who I am, and taught me very valuable lessons.
1. “You’re the most talented player here”. Said about me, by a well respected team mate, about me; in a team containing some Australian players, of epic proportions. I was at one time an athlete. I was named best player in the state, for my particular field; and numerous times beat some very good male, and female players to our best at club for my specialty.
I failed in epic proportions when it all came crashing down. I was monumentally busy with uni, work, training and playing. I took it for granted and accepted that my talent would see me through. Would make up for the lack of fitness (even though I was a lot fitter than I am now, I was still unfit compared to what they wanted). I just didn’t work hard enough to keep what I had. When in reflective moods I sometimes think about what could have been. I could, probably should, have played for Australia – for a long time.
I like to think that that’s changed now; that I’ve grown up and realised that the pursuit of dreams requires sacrifice and hard work. Dedication. I think I have that now.
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